HAPPY. is the state which i am in right now. I guess i was being ungrateful these past few days. By saying what i did, it's like i'm not acknowledging the people who actually love and care for me. I can't say i'm sorry, that was honestly how i felt at that time. But for what is worth, i'd like to talk about the things which i am happy about right now
I am happy I have you guys. You guys - the ones who allowed yourselves be pulled by me when i was so desperately trying to grab a whole of something ; anything.
I am happy with how my hair is right now , longer & manageable. Now i can start having my vain moments again xD
I am happy to know i have yet another chance to make things better in the future. hopefully.
I am happy that Ehsan's being the ol ' Ehsan again. The Ehsan who calls me everyday even if he 's busy with college stuffs and all, saying "Hehe . I Love you laaa. Comel sgt" and really sound like he meant it . Not the 'hot n cold' Ehsan, the one who treats me so nice at one point, and at the next moment, he's acting like a total a**. so yeah, i wish that he'd stay being like this for always :)
Oh i am also happy that i'll be going to Sunburst with my cousins. But i'm not really into the whole idea of jumping, screaming & shouting along with abundance of pretentious people.
Money can't buy you happiness, but it does bring you a more pleasant form of misery
♥ 1:08 AM
I know many are idealists, but I’m a realist. Sometimes it is just better to say, “Enough
,” and just walk away. Life is too short to either be constantly quitting or unnecessarily pursuing or finishing something…unless the quest is worth the perseverance. Because i believe that when one door closes, two more doors open. I'm not gonna say that i didn't give out my best shot, cause i did.
Yes, i was dissapointed in myself, like REALLY dissapointed. Do you know what it feels to have the people you love to be dissapointed in you? It makes you feel like you'd do anything just to make it up to them. The question is , "How?", "When?". I just blew out my chance and who knows, maybe i will never get a second chance . But there really wasn't anything that i can do about it. Maybe i deserve this, or perhaps it is bad karma that has come to get me ; dah tak ada rezeki. Things aren't always as they appear. Sometimes what seems to be the end is really just a new beginning. Like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. Anyway, I think you've got my point.
I find that the most ironic thing is that when i got home, i ended up watching 'The Pursuit of Happiness' that was showing on HBO. heh.
p/s : yang nak tanya tu, tanya .
Just because i'm losing, doesn't mean i've lost.
♥ 12:35 AM
March is here ... ! How time flies so fast when you're having fun , only in my case, it wasn't fun at all. February was a month filled with nothing but drama, for me at least. Anyway, i just had my first driving lesson on last Thursday. I was already all hyped - up.. I was really looking forward for it. When i first got into the Kancil car which i was supposed to drive, my driving instructor was already in the driver's seat. I smiled at him, he tried to smile back as convincingly as he could, but i'm afraid it wasn't convincing enough. Whatever, i ain't gonna let an old man ruin my mood for this. But things didn't go the way as i had hoped for. The engine car went dead a lot of times, i lost count of it. Ugh, i guess driving a manual car was a lot harder than i had expected. Good thing that it was in the evening, only a few people were there ; less humiliating. "I can do this!", i lied to myself feebly, the truth is, i wanted the 2 hours to pass by quickly. I totally sucked ! It was only my first lesson and already i've lost the will to drive. HAHA. Well, there's always first time for everything.
So my next lesson will be on the next three days straight, which starts tomorrow. Oh, let it be better than the last time please.
♥ 11:59 PM