Kiss & Blog,

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.
now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget
to keep dancing wherever we go next
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart
cause my heart is wherever you are
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

Can i have this dance - High school musical 3

If you must know, i think that this is the only song i find myself drawn to from that movie.
as expected, the movie had too much of singing, and i only watched a partial of the movie. yelaaa i know dah nama pun 'high school musical' but still...nothing beats the first movie though. This 3rd movie kinda fits my life now. End of school year , prom and all those stuffs, and maybe the part of having a boyf who plays the lead in basketball, only, mine is a footballer. :P but he isn't as hot as Zac Efron. ahaaha.

Omg, can't believe i'm having my Majlis Tamat Sekolah this Saturday. For years i've been seeing my past seniors wearing those robes, and now it has finally reached my turn to wear those old , puffy-looking robes.

I wish to dance with you like this someday ..

♥ 1:36 AM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Surprisingly, i cried today. yes, i cried on my birthday. the day which technically should be the day when all worries are put aside and filled with happiness just on that one particular day. I have been crying a lot these recent times, i know :/ The only explanation i can offer is that i was dissapointed. Dissapointed that it didn't turn out to be the close-to-perfect day as i had hoped for. and from that, i learned. I learned that in life, you can't be too excited or get your hopes high about something, because, when that something turns out wrong, even by the slightest flaw, you'll end up being profoundly emotional.

but when i think about my day in a more optimistic way, it was okay lah.

Family, Mama & Papa, thank you for trying to make this be my special day, eventhough it was only a partial success. They've been giving me bday wishes countless times today. and no more too many birthday kisses next year please.

Friends.. for the wonderful wishes. Mei, thank you for your post about me , for my bday :)

And last but not least, Ehsan. Thank you for coming all the way to pavillion to celebrate this with me, eventhough we've only spent about 2hours together. I really didn't expect that you'd give me a present on this very day, but i tahu u beli last minute ;p He bought me a Guess purse btw. The funny part is when he said "Kalau kitorg break, i NAK balik purse tu!" haha but i know you dont mean that sayang ;p You had always have a funny way of brighting up my day. I dunno what my day would've been without you<3

but that's over now. back to SPM madness! ahhhhhhhhh SCREW SPM!

♥ 11:33 PM

Yeah finally 17 babyyyyyyyyyy! =D

Here are some of the messages i received at exactly midnight sharp.

Dewi : b*tch, happy bdayy. u fucking annoy me sometimes, but heck, u'r my bitch n ilysdfm.
NOT DAT I'M A LESBO, but as a cute fren of urs. hahah. hav a great bday

Liyana : Heyy b*tch! happy sweet 17 saayang! gluck in ur spm n u know i will always
stick wit u and hope ur b**bs will start to grow after this. ahaha frens 4eva! mwah

Sarah : Happy bday olive oil! ahahahahahha

Ipin : Mai!!!! happy birthday! wah2 dah besar da dye. may allah bless u! take care! :P

Fawwaz : Happy birthday mysara. i sanggup xtdo taw. nak wish u punye pasal. ahah. happy
sweet 17 =)

OK lah, memang some of the wishes i get, like for instance, from dewi and liyana.. memang macam sial sikit, and yet .. so sweet! ahah. Ehsan called me 11 minutes later. He used to be the first to call and wish me during my lastyear's bday. pfftt.... Papa and Mama gave me kisses. Papa wanted to buy me a new phone, but i haven't decided which phone i want. Sony Ericsson again i guess.
I will be going out with Ehsan and some of his friends to pavillion.

God...I'm already feeling all jumpy and jubilant now =D

♥ 12:33 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

I am a green-eyed jealousy monster. ahh yes , not exactly as i would call it as an admirable trait which i inherited. I tend to get easily jealous over little silly things , although i'm quite capable of not showing it. but none of this has ever lead to any serious or deadly things .. not as long as i'm below my limits that is. i only did some serious stalking though :D HAHA see what i'm saying ?
I received a message from my VI friend today. He told me that last night some of the guys asked about me. flattered, and also bangga ar jugak en ;p

One more week till i reach my sweet 17th birthday :)

and this is the part when u guys quickly grap ur phones and mark it in your calender xD

♥ 10:00 PM

Today, i went to 2 different open houses. first, syahir's, a close friend of mine. second, was a guy in VI school whom i barely even knowww. well atleast he's good-looking. HAHA
okay i was getting ready to go to syahir's , then got an unexpected visit from hanif , ganageas & naqib. tiba2 i got a phone call from hanif telling me to keluar rumah. apparently, they have been in front of my house gate for about 5-10 minutes. tak boleh last minute lagi kan. haha.
suka la diorang when my parents gave them duit raya. its worth the wait kan boys? haha
so went to syahir's with the guys. ate , laughed, cam-whored.. yeah typical stuffs that we always do. oh did i mention? Syahir has got a freaking adorable cat! GRRRRRRRRRR

I went to the other open house at 8pm. i was with fila, amy and raimi.yeah..SPM is just approximately 3 weeks away, and still boleh keluar malam. (-_-)
So listen, the moment we arrived in front of Ridan's house (the VI guy), there wasn't a single female in sight. All the guys were already oustide. Talk about all eyes on us eh girls? Awkward much??
The Radin guy was such a sweetheart. Eventhough we barely even had a decend conversation with him, he treated us as if we were like his own friends. Fila asked "mana kawan perempuan you yang lain?" , he replied "i mana ada ramai kawan perempuan. Kira korang je la kawan perempuan i" while smiling from ear to ear ;) I noticed there were over-abundance of trophies and medals inside his house. FIla said that he's practically an expert in bowling. Well, the only thing i'd have to say is that whoever gets the chance to be his gf, must've been a lucky b*tch. haha. So i've made some new VI friends tonight. boy, i've never seen so many good-looking guys in just one place. :D gatal aku neyh.

Oh god, let this be the last time i'll be doing this again.

♥ 12:41 AM

Friday, October 17, 2008

I woke up at 10, and i went online after i had my breakfast and shower. just as i thought, myspace mestiiii be flooded with form 3's bulletin posts. macam2 la bulletin diorang..
like

"yeahhh dah merdeka..!"
"woahh party at my house tonite!!"
"PMR has over! let have some fun babe :D" (english broken. agaknya how'd u do on ur english paper yeah?)

yeahh i know what it feels like to finally put all your worries behind and be free. but seriously.. belum habis SPM lagiii. not to mention, you guys who go to Seksyen 5 school still have to bare with dear Pn. Sa'amah for another 2 years. haha.
wait till SPM is over.. that's when the real chaos begins. i should know, coz i'd most probably be the first to make a fool out of myself once i get out of the examination hall when the last paper is finished. HAHA
and the first thing on my to-do list once SPM is finished is to do some spraying on the wall saying

"Sa'amah SUCKS!!!"

I wouldn't exactly call is as vendalisme, but technically, a protest :)

♥ 11:57 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I woke up feeling a sharp pain on my upper lips . ahh yes, another ulcer. what are the odds eh? (not like i'm not used to it)
abundance of mosquito bites all over my arms started to test my patience. i take it as a sign to show that i was gonna have another bad day. I wondered why i even got out of bed at all..
That 's it. there goes my mood for the rest of my day
What saddens me more is my trial results. Left me feeling more unsatisfied.. Serves me right for being overly confident and not taking it seriously. Karma 's is such a bitch.
I felt like i was a complete and utter failure. like i'm just bound to fail in this life.
They all imply that i might not last the day.
So i got home with frustration, swallowing me whole again. Grabbed my sister's iPod, listened to some songs that might help make this feeling go away. But no, it didn't. it still lingers inside me.
The next thing i knew, tears come streaming down my cheeks. i tried to hold them back, but didn't work.. And so, i let it all out.

Minutes passed, and that's when my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID, an unknown number is calling. I hesitated and answered with uncertainty...a very familiar voice replied my "hello".
I know that voice.. that sweet voice is heavenly devine. Felt like everything around me suddenly becomes clear. And even if my house falls down, i wouldn't have a clue. because you're with me now. with just a smile from your inviting lips, brushes all my blues away. I wanna thank you for that. For being the best part of my day, Ehsan.

So, maybe falling in love isn't such a bad thing after all. sure there'll be bumps and bruises not to mention painful heartaches along the way.. but you'd be surprise just how little things are capable of doing.

I'm sorry, but i can't help it. I'm an elite idealist of love. A hopeless romantic :)

♥ 2:20 PM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Supposedly, today would be the day i'll be taking off my braces. Papa has been eagerly waiting for this day to come. He kept on saying "yeayy yeayy.. Ara nak bukak braces!" in a sort of childish and annoying way. You'd be surprised just how chlidish my dad could be (-_-) When we were just about to leave the house to go to the dentist, Papa rushed upstairs just to get the camera and take 'last' pictures of me wearing the braces. Embarassing much?
But when i finally got there, the dentist decided to let me wear the braces for another month. She thinks that my front teeth still needs to be slightly adjusted. Final touch la ni. You should've seen the look on my dad's face when he heard that. haha. i was a bit dissapointed yet happy that i still have time to take more pictures of my grills. HAHA
I find that wearing braces is fun. Especially getting to choose different colours for the rubbers. ;D

♥ 11:34 PM

Thursday, October 9, 2008

October is here! Which could only means that i'm turning 17 this month. it's on the 26th to be exact. or should i literally say that i CAN wait because SPM would be just around the corner? Looking back, i don't feel like i wanna leave this school yet. A part of me still wants to be stuck in this horrid place for another year. Ironic isn't it? It's like my life is meant to be in this place.

If only life could be a bit less complicated.

Oh and goodluck to you kiddos who are having PMR nextweek. Senang je PMR ;P

♥ 2:17 PM