Yes, i'm leaving at midnight. Together with the other cousins. I'm very excited, and yet , sad ..
Sad to not be able to see him more often after this. I knoww, that some may say "it's not like you guys won't be seeing each other again", but it's just different. He'd be busy with college stuffs while i'll be sitting home doing nothing and be waiting for his call or msgs miserably.

I've been thinking a lot about US lately. What will become of us after these few months? Will we still be closer or further apart? I'm being taken over by the fear. If i was still in school, it'd be a whole lot different story. School would definitely help me keep myself busy and not think about him too much. But alas, saya bukan lagi budak sekolah, remember?

So in case you'r reading this Ehsan, which i think you do constantly keep checking my blog updates eventhough you don't wanna admit it, (how strange guys are eh?) , I just want you to know that i'll be waiting.. waiting for your call.. waiting for your return home. And if you ever menggatal dekat sana, you know that i'll find out about it sooner or later. You're the only one i ever sincerely fell hard for. I just had to post this, strangely, I don't like telling you this straightly in person or in SMS.
Aku pun ada ego kan.

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